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Ten Thousand Days

Sleeping Bear, Pregnant Ox

February 23, 2021

Photo: Daniele Levis Pelusi

Day 2358 – Day 2383

I identify with Bear Spirit, but I cannot recall a time when I have so fully been in a winter hibernation as I have been this past month.  I have been undergoing intensive physiotherapy for a tremendously painful complication of an old injury from 2019.  At first, the pain was manageable between sessions but in December it became so intense that I was unable to sleep for over a month despite my physiotherapist’s best efforts and then an ultrasound and X-Ray pinpointed the cause of the problem.  Thankfully, there is a non-surgical intervention and my physiotherapist and deep tissue massage practitioners have been working to heal me.  I’m still a long way off, but I have treatment 3 days a week.  With the help of some legal, over-the-counter painkiller/anti-inflammatories and the application of heat,  I’ve more than made up for all the sleep I lost.

After each session, I have some fluids, take some medicine and sleep for several hours while my body repairs itself.  I wake, eat and return to sleep for an inhuman amount of time.  I seem to come out of this healing coma just in time for another treatment.  I do only what is absolutely necessary in a day and am asleep almost from the moment I arrive home till the moment I leave again.

While this healing coma was not expected, it is, I am told by my practitioners, not harmful and probably helpful.  I do, however, rather feel like I am sleeping my life away and as the Lunar New Year has come and gone, it is time for me to get on with getting on with my life.  It’s time to improve my range of motion – physically, emotionally, and spiritually.

And yet, I want to honour what has gone before.  In honouring the hibernation of Bear Spirit, I recognize that I have been conserving my energy – not for survival – but for revival.  I am coming out of this sleep having done a lot of physical healing as well as psychic healing through dream work and letting go of some old attachments and fears.  Not every sleep has been peaceful but while my body has been healing at a cellular level, my mind has been processing a lot of junk and burning up what no longer needs to accompany me in the year ahead.  It’s time to thank Bear Spirit for the healing rest and see what the year of the Ox has yet to birth.

Photo: Macau Photo Agency


For what are you most grateful, today?

Ten Thousand Days

Gratitude, Joy, Oneness and Service (Day 461 – Day 464)

November 28, 2015
Photo by Jaime Handley

Photo by Jaime Handley

I have said that I am grateful for my intuition and I am.  I find myself questioning the information I keep getting.  Much like the Friday of the Paris attacks, when Paris was screaming at me all day, someone is trying to get my attention in my dreams.  The person is someone I care about but is absent from my life.  Four times in the past two weeks I have dreamed about him.  Once, it woke me in the middle of the night and by the time I wrote down the dream, I noticed a crow outside my window, cawing.  When I was in writing school, the Raven spirit landed on my shoulder in a dream and so I take crows and ravens as serious messengers. I am grateful that the crow has brought me so many dreams to alert me and take my attention to my friend.  I don’t know what the issue is, with him, and I don’t need to know. The important thing is that I think I am being called again and I must listen and send my attention, love and light to him.

This week I have been rolling around some writing ideas in my mind and contacting people with requests for interviews.  I am grateful that a couple have come back with positive replies.  I am also enjoying rolling around a short story in my mind.  If writing a short story (first draft) might take 12 hours at the computer then it probably takes at least 48 hours of solid attention spread over time to let the unconscious roll over the associations and images. I am grateful for the space to let ideas develop, right now.

I am grateful for my warm duvet today.  I am feeling a little worse for wear after a few nights out at the galleries this week.  My warm and cozy duvet has been a perfect place for an afternoon nap. And sleep seems important, not least because this is where I am being called to do my healing work.

It was a joy to go to a couple of great art shows this week.  The first was a new exhibition featuring some pieces by Gilbert & George and the second was an exhibition which highlighted the role of social media in promoting the visual statement and the role of the visual statement in promoting oneself on social media. It was interesting and I met some very interesting strangers at both events.

I have been a little preoccupied by my dreams over the last couple of days.  One thing I really experience is his absence, even in my dream.  Although absence is normally not something we would associate with Oneness, the sensing of the absence has oddly brought me into engagement and connection with him.  I am in tune with the messages about him that Oneness is sending me, even if I don’t fully understand them.

And of course, sending  my attention, focus and healing energy in the direction in which I am being called is my service for the last few days.


Mama Cass sang my favourite version of this song, but I quite like this remix by blnd!


And so it remains only to ask:


For what are you grateful, today?