Day 2358 – Day 2383
I identify with Bear Spirit, but I cannot recall a time when I have so fully been in a winter hibernation as I have been this past month. I have been undergoing intensive physiotherapy for a tremendously painful complication of an old injury from 2019. At first, the pain was manageable between sessions but in December it became so intense that I was unable to sleep for over a month despite my physiotherapist’s best efforts and then an ultrasound and X-Ray pinpointed the cause of the problem. Thankfully, there is a non-surgical intervention and my physiotherapist and deep tissue massage practitioners have been working to heal me. I’m still a long way off, but I have treatment 3 days a week. With the help of some legal, over-the-counter painkiller/anti-inflammatories and the application of heat, I’ve more than made up for all the sleep I lost.
After each session, I have some fluids, take some medicine and sleep for several hours while my body repairs itself. I wake, eat and return to sleep for an inhuman amount of time. I seem to come out of this healing coma just in time for another treatment. I do only what is absolutely necessary in a day and am asleep almost from the moment I arrive home till the moment I leave again.
While this healing coma was not expected, it is, I am told by my practitioners, not harmful and probably helpful. I do, however, rather feel like I am sleeping my life away and as the Lunar New Year has come and gone, it is time for me to get on with getting on with my life. It’s time to improve my range of motion – physically, emotionally, and spiritually.
And yet, I want to honour what has gone before. In honouring the hibernation of Bear Spirit, I recognize that I have been conserving my energy – not for survival – but for revival. I am coming out of this sleep having done a lot of physical healing as well as psychic healing through dream work and letting go of some old attachments and fears. Not every sleep has been peaceful but while my body has been healing at a cellular level, my mind has been processing a lot of junk and burning up what no longer needs to accompany me in the year ahead. It’s time to thank Bear Spirit for the healing rest and see what the year of the Ox has yet to birth.