Day 2309 – Day 2342
Give me till February.
Over a few dishes of dim sum, a friend once noted that I really don’t kick into the new year until Chinese New Year. At the time, I attributed this to the fact that I would be jetlagged for much of January and would require several weeks to really recover from a trip overseas. Those trips were hard on my body. But I think there is something else at play, as well. The holidays are difficult. I need time to decompress, do a good purging of closets, and practice self-care until I can return to a state of equanimity and equilibrium.
I also never buy into an arbitrary date when everything changes or the idea that a new year brings about a new me. Change is an arduous process. Sometimes we take two steps forward and then slide back again. I’m grateful that I do not buy into the New Year’s hype. I am a bit more realistic. We do not change overnight. Circumstances do.
The world is traumatized. We all need some self-care.
I do believe that globally, the prolonged stress of this period of our history is going to leave a lot of mental health challenges and widespread PTSD. If you can, practice self-soothing and seek help if you need it. I did a series on self-soothing, to which I will return in 2021, on my YouTube channel. You can find it here.
I’m not ready to get back to YouTubing just yet. I considered calling it a day after a year on YT and while I don’t enjoy it, I have the privilege of having the attention of over 100 subscribers. I am incredibly grateful for that privilege. If I can, I will do my best to inspire them to grateful living, even in the worst of times. But to do that, I need a full well on which to draw. Some people love the process of making videos. I find it a lot of work and it takes time from pleasures that I have been missing. I am going to spend today painting. Sometimes, when words fail me, making music, taking photos or painting seems to be the best medicine. I’m so grateful for my voice and for my ability to create through a visual medium. I hope that you, also, have something soothing and expressive that you can turn to, to help yourself express the inexpressible and to ease into this new year.
I will be ready to tackle goals and take on the world once I’ve spent some time alone in my simple pleasures. I will post, but it may not be anything earth shattering or profound. In the meantime, we begin 2021 with a re-focus on the simple practice of Gratitude Journaling. I’ve created a free downloadable calendar for the practice which you can access by signing up to my email list here. Each month, on YouTube, I will be focusing on one of our core practices, but of course, I always encourage people to continue journaling and see how it changes as we add on new practices and states of being.
I’m off to make a cup of tea and look deeply and quietly at things. For anything else…give me till February.