Gratitude, Joy, Oneness, Service, Purpose and Meaning (Day 1117 – 1124)
Last year I took a big step in my life and decided to embark on a 4 year cycle of transformation with a Shamanic healer that I have known for about 20 years. My first retreat on this pathway was held in Arizona a few weeks ago.
This is a mystery school and so it’s hard to talk about the transformation that happens and exactly how powerful it is. I can describe what is happening but i think it must be experienced to be understood. Much like my Sufi path, it involves direct connection with the Divine.
This past weekend, I was tasked to undertake the second part of a ritual that I began in Arizona. On Thursday, I asked Spirit to show me what I needed to do and then I spent Friday gathering items from the woods and from the seaside to be offered in gratitude. On Saturday, I went deep into the woods to find what needed to be found for the offering. And then on Sunday, I met a cohort in Mount Vernon, Washington and we prepared ourselves and travelled and hiked to the ocean, where we undertook the ritual.
I’m grateful that I had a cohort with whom to do this work. I’m not saying I couldn’t have done it, but he knows how to build a fire and I don’t. He also knows the PNW and although I went to University here, I really never explored much of the area and have lived away from here most of my adult life. I’m grateful that I got to see a new beach in a part of Washington that I love to visit and is closer to me than my own Canadian city. And of course, I am grateful to the power of Spirit for answering my prayers and participating with me in my transformation.
After the ritual was complete, it was a joy to spend time with my cohort and watch the sun set. While we prepared our sacred space, my cohort noticed a hummingbird and I realised that I had never actually seen one in person. As we continued, crow, geese, small birds and seagulls all came to participate with us. I really did feel a sense of Oneness with the bird population all around us. As I work through this transformation, I am clearing a lot of energy that keeps me from living my soul’s purpose and removes a legacy of blocked energy for the descendants of this time. In an invisible way, I am doing deep service not only for myself and my relations but for my ancestors, descendants and – with mindfulness – the planet.
The main aim of this work is to free an individual to live their soul’s purpose. As we were heading to the beach for the ritual, we happened upon a Before I Die wall in Mount Vernon, Washington and without hesitation I answered their call:
Before I die, I want to______
‘Live my soul’s purpose.’
It was another magic moment.
I’m not sure that I am clear about what that soul purpose is, for me – I have many passions and gifts, but as I work with the programme, and follow the directions in which I am guided, I do believe that will become clear.
As I was preparing for the ritual of this past weekend, I was very aware of the energy of fire and water and so much of that energy went into creating my ritual objects and was present in the choice of location for our ritual fire (right by the ocean/bay). As I look to the next ritual for Summer Solstice, which occurs this evening and will be celebrated for the following week, it is very much the energies that I associate with both fire and water that are calling out to be healed, set free and celebrated.
I skinny dipped for the first time while I was away. I’ve sunbathed in a clothing optional situation before before but skinny dipping was not really something I ever had the chance to do. And of all the things that happened on retreat, I think this may be one of the most momentous. Under a nearly full moon and in the presence of the stars, I bathed in the fullness of most glorious vulnerable nudity and for perhaps the first time, I felt fully that I was a part of all of creation and all of creation was a part of me.
I won’t tell you where I’m celebrating the solstice, but I do plan to repeat the process on the beach and invite, free and celebrate the energies and lessons of this summer season. I hope that you, wherever you are, will greet this season of passion, fire and youth with joy and celebration. I wish us all the exhilaration of feeling naked and vulnerable before something greater than ourselves and the courage to surrender to that out-of-control-not-knowing-wonder-of-being!
Have a wonderful Summer Solstice!