Day 1662 – Day 1700
It has been so long since I posted! I have been thinking of you and wanting to sit down and post something but it has just been such a busy time. I thought about it yesterday and I’m happy to say that although, in the past, a long gap in writing was associated with a period of grief, this gap has been associated with so much good stuff (and a little of life’s irritations) happening!
I’ve been planting seeds. Not in the garden, yet, because it has rained every weekend that I’ve been well enough to garden, but I’ve been planting them in my life. I had a very busy work year this year and have been working on a project since January that wrapped up three days after I was supposed to leave to be on annual leave. So, I had to curtail my annual leave to make sure we had a successful conclusion to the project. As soon as results were in (I’m still wrapping up the paperwork), I jumped in my car and zoomed down to Portland, Oregon to spend a couple of days in a class with the man who I credit for unleashing me on the world of acrylic painting, Jesse Reno. I’m so grateful to have met him in 2017 and to have been able to continue to study with him every year, since. I had a tiring but joyful trip, meeting old friends and new, and producing some great new works that I’m hoping to exhibit this summer.
As soon as I returned from Portland, I had to rush to my drawing class at Emily Carr University of Art and Design. My relationship with drawing is a complicated one and teachers have tried to press me to spend years learning to draw before I learned to paint. I’m not willing to do that. And so, I was delighted to meet Jesse Reno who told me that I didn’t need to draw to learn to be a good painter. He’s right. And, this year, I decided that my painting would be helped with better drawing skills. It’s been a humbling experience because I struggle with drawing in a way that I don’t with painting. But, it was MY decision to improve my drawing skills and so I was happy with each little improvement. My teacher, Keith, has been amazing, encouraging even my worst efforts and through his positive approach as well as technical knowledge, I’ve seen my skills improve. There is still nothing I would want to show anyone, but I learned to use new drawing tools and got a bit of theory under my belt. It was never ‘work’ or a ‘chore’ and I never felt like I wasn’t doing it ‘right’. He worked very hard at helping us to not judge our work and I’m very grateful for that. My classmate were wonderfully supportive as well. The class finished last night and I’ve got two projects that I’m going to continue to work on, to help me continue developing until I return to classes in the autumn.
I also took a great class with some street artists in Vancouver this month and created some collaborative works with them one sunny Saturday. Again, it was great to develop and reinforce old skills and to spend time with like minded people, making a new friend or two.
In the past few weeks I’ve also been to a thrilling, joy-inspiring couple of workshops with Moira Smiley in Seattle at Frontier Home. I was very tired that weekend and, in hindsight, I was coming down with the flu, but I had a blast at the workshops and I hope to study with her again in the future. Moira has a real joy in singing and in teaching and the group really came together as a supportive environment even though most of us were strangers to one another. I love the sense of community that I get when I attend events at Frontier Home, and Moira was a particularly wonderful facilitator.
Of course, I did what we all must do at this time of year – I spent ages working several nights into the wee hours, putting together my tax paperwork for my annual tax return. It’s been a busy time.
And, yes, I got run down from all the work, and yes, I had the flu. Last weekend I slept for 4 days and missed the annual general meeting of the Garden, which made me sad. I’m still not 100 percent well, but I’m getting there. I’ve got some of my lettuce and spinach planted and I hope to get more planting done before dark tonight as its set to rain all weekend again, but little by little, I hope to have my garden planted by end of April, save for the hot weather crops. I’m doing some service again this year by leading the Greenhouse volunteers, and I’m really looking forward to a new growing season.
Since I’ve had to change my diet so radically, I’ve been working on watching loads of YouTube videos of cooks who cater to my skill level and dietary needs. I should be a chef by now, with the number of videos I’ve watched! I’m looking forward to growing my own vegetables and using them in new ways this summer and autumn.
All of this has happened on top of more than full time work load. So, as I said, it’s been busy.
But, part of my purpose is not only living this journey of ten thousand days of practice, it is also documenting it. And in that I have been remiss. I’m grateful that today, I could drop my wish to have a wonderfully meaningful epiphany and simply sit down and spend my lunch hour putting a few words to the gratitude I’ve been feeling.
Last night, on the drive home from my final drawing class, I noticed that most of the time, I’m feeling pretty wonderful, emotionally. Yes, when I was sick, I felt a bit isolated, but frankly, I wanted to just sleep anyway. I’m in a good place and I believe a lot of this happiness has been down to really making an effort to focus on the things for which I’m grateful, and noticing the really sublime moments like being conducted, with my fellow workshop attendees, by Moira Smiley. I haven’t been posting my gratitude, but its been overflowing in my life. When it comes to writing, a former creative writing professor once told me that sometimes you write and sometimes you are immersed in living and gathering the raw material of writing. But, it’s good to keep coming back here and I’m working on re-setting some of my commitments to align with my deepest priorities, so that I will be more regular, again, in my posting.
I’m grateful that you’ve come back again to witness the journey. Lots has been germinating over the winter and particularly the past few weeks. I’m looking forward to working with it all in the coming months!